~WARNING. This is a negative journal entry and I'm just venting. So leave me the fuck alone about how "negative" I am~

~~Also a little bad language~~

I want to leave my school so bad. With friends like mine who needs enemies? I want to leave America even. Everyone here is a horrible person. Not like anyone would care even if I did leave. That's fine, I want to go AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. The only people keeping me from leaving are my parents. If I wouldn't feel bad leaving them I'd be all the way in JAPAN by now. OR GERMANY. OR SOMEWHERE OTHER THAN THIS PLACE. Ughh....I'm sick of feeling underappreciated. I'm sick of how popular my "friends" are. OH YES. ---- and ---- are SOOOO amazing and Kendra is just the bitch who follows them everywhere!!! WELL I SAY FUCK NO TO THAT. Normally I hate stereotypes and I like to keep calm but these people are DRIVING ME INSANE. All I want to do is find out where I fit into this world. Maybe a prep...or a goth...or a jock...or a nerd...I don't know. Fuck this shit. WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK???? Maybe I should be happy and not care what people think, is that it? Should I just be happy and not care if people think I'm annoying? If only I could do that...

But I hate dressing like an emo, I hate dressing like a prep, I hate dressing like a jock, I hate dressing like a nerd. So what do I DO?????? How can do it?????? I just don't don't want to be an outcast anymore!!!!! Even a nerd would be okay!!!!!!!! NERDS HAVE OTHER NERD FRIENDS. That's a step above an outcast!!!!! But I can't do it...I find otaku nerd talk child-ish and I find preps too bitchy and I find jocks too energetic. I can't find anyone to connect with.